The Magnet

I had a magnet. If I was angry, it attracted angry people. If I was depressed, it seemed like everyone was depressed.

I didn’t always have this magnet. So where did it come from?

It came from the Law of Vibration. It wasn’t the law’s fault. I misinterpreted it on a deep level. I internalized things in a very unhealthy way. I’ve been on a journey of identity. This was just another layer in the identity story.

The Law of Vibration is basically that like attracts like. So, I took on the idea that if I was feeling angry, then I was angry and therefor attracting anger. Part of this came from the concept pounded into us that if we say “I am” that is what we claim as our identity.

What if that just isn’t true? What if the words I am don’t really do anything? I could claim to be a rabbit but it just isn’t true. I know it’s not true. My kids know it’s not true. Even if you have never met me, you know that it is not true. The universe therefore also must know it is not true. Saying “I am a rabbit” does not turn me into a rabbit.

It isn’t the “I am” statements that create our identities. Therefor, I can say “I am angry” and I may feel anger but I actually can never become a something that is “angry”, whatever an angry is. I can feel more and more anger, if I want or I can let it fade away by acknowledging the feeling. I can never become a noun called angry.

The truth is, I am a precious being of light. I always have been. I always will be. I may not always remember this or even believe it, but it doesn’t change the reality that is who I am.

That being of light that is me, is always attracting to it the life aligned with light. The real reason I am not living that life is not about who “I am” it’s about the blocks in my energy. Could be beliefs, emotions, thoughts, etc. The light goes out from me, hits those blocks and kind of stops or gets twisted. If I do manage to send it out into the world, it gets stopped on the way back in, twisting what I experience. In essence, the life I am experiencing is more about who I believe I am than who I actually am.

It means I can feel anger and not have “anger” come back at me. It means I can feel frustrated and still not experience frustrated people. Unless I have a belief that I am “anger” or that I will attract anger back to me.

I have had a disconnect with my past. I remember back in high school that if I felt angry, I was just angry and that was it. I didn’t have more angry people around me like I started to experience in the last 20 years. I remember praying for things and having them show up, and that was without clearing all the blocks. This disconnect has had me asking a lot of questions.

Are the Laws of the Universe actually true? If so, why were things so different then?

I believe that the Laws of the Universe are true, however, they are vastly misunderstood by many people. They have philosophies skewing their truth. They have some out and out lies mixed in with truth. Most importantly, when I learned them, I misunderstood them and created beliefs that changed my experience in life.

I began to believe I had to have perfectly clear energy in order to get anything from life. Even though I had some pretty crazy miracles before this belief. I began to believe I was everything I put an “I am” in front of. I began to believe these things so deeply that they changed my reality.

As I’m owning my identity, a lot of these beliefs are being debunked or clarified. We don’t have to have completely clear energy to get what we want from life. We might be led to clear some things so that we can feel more at peace with life and maybe so we can get things faster but we can experience crazy cool miracles when we have tons of blocks. It doesn’t really matter what we say we are, it doesn’t change the truth of who we believe we are. If anything, it is a tool to show us what we believe about ourselves. I’m definitely planning a future blog about how to use “I am” as a tool.

We can feel things without interupting what is coming to us. More on feelings in a future post as well. They do play a role, an important role, but they are not who we are. We are not an angry even if we say, “I am angry.”

It’s time for me to shift some of these ideas that I bought into so deeply. If you sense yourself in my story, maybe it’s time for you to reevaluate too.

Big hugs!

Michele